Stu In Progress

with you I fight an endless battle of perception, which has no keeper, no protector to keep it at bay. I fight shoulds and shouldnts – I fight what ifs and mind whys.

I fight wars with conditioning my thoughts and feelings so as to allow you to think otherwise.

these mind wars have their toll.

I’m sick of following you – sick of needing you. I’m sick of trying for you when all I need to do is try for me.

I’m sick of you leading me – i’m sick of me following you.

I’m incomplete without you – I’m lonely with you.

I dont want you.

not again.

never.

Today was Frightfully cold, so cold that i found it quite nessesary muttering and moaning to myself – while walking up a country road towards my office, I caught myself laughing at something I mumbled…

It all started with “Jesus it’s cold”, “Jusus – it’s cold”. Then, “Jesus, Mary and Joseph it’s cold”. Then it came, “Jesus, Mary and Joseph and both their dogs, it’s cold.” I found myself quite amused at that last statement, not forgetting the cold, I repeated that phrase to myself all the way until I reached the warm of the office. Jesus, Mary and Joseph and their two dogs it was cold.

Happy Easter my boy…. the caravan park has filled up muchly … so there is a hum around the area

with peoples chatting and children playing etc

Enjoy your day …Love Mom & Dad

The view we have from our resorts front lawn   ///// Just magic //////

We went to Bourke’s Luck, 3 Rondavels & Berlyn Falls today